Maternity Leave – Day 47
weight = unknown (still working up the courage)
I pulled myself and the baby out of bed at 6:30am. Today was my husband’s first day back to work and I was nervous. While the hubby got ready, I couldn’t help but think back on everything he had done in the last few weeks, which only reinforced my anxiety. How could I possibly be entrusted to care for this baby on my own? In the blink of an eye a lot had changed in two weeks and I wasn’t feeling confident about my ability to navigate those changes solo.
Sadly, as I held our newborn in my arms and kissed my husband good-bye I couldn’t help but wonder who was getting the better deal. I am sure I will be heartbroken when I eventually have to go back to work. Today, however, the fear of the unknown and a lack of confidence in my mothering abilities made me long for the safety of the office.